1. |
Blood Flow
02:40
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everywhere I look I see things that remind me of my personal failings
I walk over the overpass and dream of jumping over the railings
they put those fences up for people like me
they put up those fences for people like me
when you were a kid you heard your parents talking
they were down in the basement
you could hear your father's voice
coming up through the heat vents
"Don't you ever wish we never had kids?"
and you started to wish that you didn't exist
you're a fucking force of nature, don't you ever forget it
this world has got nothing on you, not unless you let it
I won't tell you everything will be alright
but I'm your friend and I'm with you in this fight
everybody's doing the best they can, even if they aren't even trying
you've gotta keep on living even while you're dying
I wanna die with a song in my heart
even if I'm violently torn apart
and I'll sing, whoa
while I watch my blood flow...
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2. |
Why Is Life So Hard?
02:28
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I'm breaking down, I'm breaking down hard
I'm shaking now my brain is scarred
I'm trying to make sense of all this pain
But there is just no way to explain
Why is life so hard?
I've got a disease and there's no cure
Sometimes it's more than I can endure
I'm trying to make sense of god's plan
I don't think I can understand
Why is life so hard?
Does it all amount to nothing in the end?
At least I'm not alone
At least I've got my friends
And if it all amounts to nothing in the end
Oh well, we'll still give em hell!
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3. |
Better Off Alone
02:34
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The house is cold and empty just like me I feel it shivering
Held out some hope for times like these now I can feel it withering
and I know im better off alone
I'm better off alone, I'm better off...
I once threw a party no one came, I guess it's all the same cause
I got legend of Zelda and well thats a single player game
and I know I'm better off alone
I'm better off alone
I'm better off without out them in my life
You cannot respect me because you do not accept me
And you cannot accept me because you do not respect me
and I know I'm better off alone
I'm better off alone
I'm better off without you
In my life
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4. |
Failed Man
02:19
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the first time someone called me 'queer'
I didn't know what it meant
so I looked it up in the dictionary
and I took it as a compliment, whoa-oh
I took it as a compliment
it said 'strange, odd or unusual'
and I thought to myself,
why would anyone ever wanna be
wanna be anything else?
the first time I ever wore a dress
I should've known my life would be a mess
cause I looked in the mirror and hated what I saw
just a little less, just a little bit less
I was just fourteen I wish someone had told me then...
that I didn't have to feel like a failed man
I didn't have to feel like a failed plan.
and I'll stop being 'queer' the day
you stop saying it's not OK
for people to act a certain way
because of their anatomy
because of the shape of their bodies
maybe I wouldn't have to feel
maybe I wouldn't have to feel
maybe I wouldn't have to feel like a failed man
wouldn't have to feel like a failed plan
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5. |
Let Go (Hold On)
03:10
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You told me how you put the needle
Between your ring and pinky toe
Because that was the only place
Left that wouldn't show
Every time you came home looking thinner
God damn it we're gonna sit down and eat dinner-
as a family for once
pulling teeth out at the table
I remember thinking that was normal
When you got out of rehab
you said you'd been born again
You told me that Jesus had
forgiven all your sins
and I said I forgave you too
But I think that I spoke too soon
I think I spoke too soon
I wanted it to be true
I wanted to be unburdened too
You have to let go
You have to let go (hold on)
When they put the needle
Down into my spine
When we got home I acted like
everything was fine
But inside I was begging to die
I was begging to die I was begging to die
I was begging please God help me
But God did not answer
and somewhere some little kid is dying of cancer
You have to hold on
You have to hold on (let go)
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I guess I really thought that I was making progress
But now I'm even worse off than I was
Two steps forward and ten steps back
How can I ever get back on track
Make up for what I lack
there's so many things I can't take back
I wish I realized that I was on an island
When I let those bridges burn
I wish I had realized that I'd be on my own
Stranded with no way to get back home
Now I'll die alone
Far from everything I've ever known...
Under the overpass
I'm going nowhere fast
So won't you let it fall on me
Let it fall on me
I know it's all on me
It's all on me
Maybe I won't always be a disappointment
Maybe I'll wake up and make a therapy appointment
Instead of laying hear waiting to waste away
Hour after hour day after day
Under the overpass
I'm going nowhere fast
So won't you let it fall on me
Let it fall on me
I know it's all on me
It's all on me
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Lying to you when I say
Everything will be ok
But I'll say it anyway
If it helps you make it through the day
If it helps you to make it through one more day
I'll hold you close and keep you near
Tell you what you need to hear
Tell you there's nothing to fear
Maybe we can make it through one more year
I'll lie lie lie right through my teeth
If it can give you any relief
When I hear you cry I will say
Everything will be OK
Why why why is life so brief
There's hardly enough time to process all the grief
Before you die and your soul flies away
Everything will be OK
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8. |
Coming Soon
02:04
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Dreamed that I died and when I woke up I cried
When I realized I was still alive
For I had tasted just how sweet it was to die
Dreamed that I died and when I woke up I cried
Never learned to do anything the easy way
No matter what anyone might do or say
Well, I can tell ya there's a price you must pay
For never learning to do anything the easy way
I don't really like to whine
But life gets harder all the time
And I hope something better
Is coming soon
You don't know how badly I wanna run right now
Wake up with the sun and take a train outta town
But I still feel so weary and so god damn broke down
You don't know how badly I wanna run right now
Jumped from a sinking ship onto a burning one
I realized too late just what I had done
I guess you could say that I had a good run
Jumped from a sinking ship onto a burning one
I'm not going to name any names
But they stacked the odds and rigged the game
And I hope something better
Is coming soon
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9. |
Inauthenticity
01:34
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Let me get one thing straight
I'm not gonna wait any longer
To start living authentically
To start figuring out what that even means
By trying to comply
I spent so many years just living a lie
And that's hard to accept
But even harder to deny
I don't think I'm ever gonna stop
Growing and changing
If I find the parts don't fit
I'll take them and I'll rearrange them
It's becoming clear
I spent so many years just living in fear
But it's hard to be visible
When you'd rather disappear
But I can't afford to wait any longer
I'm afraid I'll lose my soul
The feeling is getting stronger
Playing such an unfulfilling role
Inauthenticity
I don't think I'm ever gonna stop...
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