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bad luck & bad luv
02:46
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I only touch myself
If I'm feeling self destructive
Because I destroy everything that I touch
I was afraid to hold you
Because I thought my hands were bad luck
I thought my love was bad love
And I love you so...
Much it terrifies me
And I don't know what to do
So I'll push you away
Before I get the chance to hurt you
Like I always do...
cause I always run away
Just when things start to get rough
But I know we've both had enough
Bad luck and bad luv
The first time I went to visit u
At the house on Harris
I fell down the stairs and broke yr window
and I was so embarrassed
But u weren't mad
You were just glad I was ok
u didn't press the issue
and I knew even then
That I wanted to kiss you
So much that I was terrified
That I would ruin everything
But it gets harder to hide
Every time we sing
That I'm falling for u
but I always run away
Just when things start to get rough
But I know we've both had enough
Bad luck and bad luv
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I wish I was less obsessed with passing
and I wish I was less desperate for my parents approval
because who am I kidding? It's never gonna happen
For me, can't you see?
But I'm in luv with the way u see me
U make feel so brave and beautiful
u make me wanna be me
and who am I kidding
I'm in luv
and I wish I was less of a sucker for the soft bois
So well read and well dressed, oh so perfectly poised
But who am I kidding? With their bad haircuts
And pastel painted nails
it never fails
But I'm in luv with the way u see me
U make feel so brave and beautiful
u make me wanna be me
and who am I kidding
I'm in luv
I'm in luv but I don't know what I'm doing
I'm afraid I'll lead us both into ruin
I'm in luv luv luv
Oh heaven help me, I'm in luv
I wish I was less of a god damn coward
But I must confess I've never felt more helpless or disempowered
And who am I kidding when I say that it’ll change?
It's out of range...
But I'm in luv with the way u see me
U make feel so brave and beautiful
u make me wanna be me
and who am I kidding
I'm in luv
I'm in luv but I don't know what I'm doing
I'm afraid I'll lead us both into ruin
I'm in luv luv luv
Oh heaven help me, I'm in luv
I'm in luv (who am I kidding?)
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3. |
distance (dissonance)
03:10
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I'd go any distance my dear friend
2 let u know that you can always depend
On me to see u through
I'd go 2 the end of the earth w u
If u wanted me 2
But lately we've been getting a bit off beat
and the harmony that once sounded so sweet
sounds so
dissonant
I just need some time to figure out
The source of all this pain and doubt
Some time 2 separate
all of the parts of u I luv
from the parts of myself I hate
We once made such sweet music you and I
But now when we sing together
It just makes me wanna die it sounds so
Dissonant
Do we need space
or 2 be closer
2 start over
Or find closure
I've always had 1 foot out the door
Are we in luv
or codependent
should we end
or try 2 mend it
I just know I can’t do this anymore
We've always gone against the grain
But lately it's been harder to sustain
the weight of what's unspoken
The fear that something is broken
between u and me
Is this a problem we can solve
Is there anyway we can resolve
This dissonance?
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wool
02:57
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Now my eyes are itching
From the wool that you pulled over them
and I still feel the sting
From where you sunk your claws into my skin
Did you want to watch me squirm
like a worm in your talons?
Now the ground never feels firm
Beneath my feet so I can't keep my balance
I wish I never met you
I wish I could forget you
had me hanging from a hook
I'll never get back what you took
I self harm with holy water
as repentance for my sin
I keep turning it hotter
Until it starts to scald my skin
Since u left ur mark on me
I haven't seen the sunlight
Since u sunk ur teeth into me
nothing really feels quite right
I wish I could forget you
I wish I never met you
Had me hanging on a hook
I'll never get back what you took
and now my eyes are itching...
u pull the wool u pull the wool u pull the wool
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discarded
03:07
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I feel you slippin' from my hands
I feel like I am grippin' sand
I feel you slip thru my fingers
slip thru my fingers
slip thru my fingers
Don't let me linger any longer than you have to
I need an answer do you want me or should I let you go
We were so young
We’d only just begun
To understand the nature of this situation
And I know I can be hard to live with sometimes
But I love you and I don't want you to go
You need to know just where I stand
Should we abandon all we've planned
Or try to stay together
To stick together
Keep it together
Don't let me linger any longer than you have to
I need an answer do you want me or should I let you go
We were so young
We’d only just begun
To understand the nature of this situation
And I know I can be hard to live with sometimes
But I love you and I don't want you to go
I don’t want u 2 go (let’s get married)
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luv 4 fools (4 luv)
01:56
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I used to wish that I could kiss
him after cross country practice
when he would walk me home halfway
why else would I have wanted
2 run 10 miles after school each day?
I wish I could wake up and feel at home in this body
I wish I could wake up and feel at home in this house
I wish I could wake up and walk away
wish I could wake up and feel OK
who am I kidding anyway?
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8. |
pack light (upheaval)
02:52
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i pack light so i won't get weighed down
so I won't find myself stuck in the same town
cuz I've never been able
to feel secure and stable
never had a 'childhood home'
all i've ever known is
upheaval
upheaval
upheaval
that's why i pack light
that's why i try to run away
every time that we fight
when u never learn how to
put ur trust in people
u just do what u gotta do
to make it through all the
upheaval
upheaval
upheaval
have i been going about it all wrong
have i been playing the fool all along
have i been going about it all wrong?
pack light
pack light
i've gotten too good at moving on
and i thought by now that i'd have been long gone
but i'm willing to fight
to save this life we've made together
if we see this thru
i think that we can weather this
upheaval
upheaval
upheaval
have i been going about it all wrong
have i been playing the fool all along
have i been going about it all wrong?
pack light
pack light
i always pack light
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